Monday, January 11, 2010
Friday, October 2, 2009
Port Pirie
It's 2:30am on a Saturday morning, and I'm feeling depressed. I need to say how much someone means to me, but words cant really describe. Here goes...
Hannah
The day we met, we talked for hours. We got along so well. You've been a massive part of my life ever since. If I leave before ever seeing you. I want you to know that you'll always have my heart. There's no one else in this world that could live up to you. Your my best friend. And you'll always be my Best friend. I don't care how far away you are. When we talk its like we share the same room. I wish it were that simple.
I just want you to know that ill always love you. And one day your life will be bliss. I promise Hannah. I'll make it happen. Fuck the problems, and live in our own world. We make it what we want, and that's what I love.
Well, I best head off to sleep. I will always need you in my life Hannah. I know I say this a fuck load but it will never be enough, I love you.
''My surface is so tough, I don't think the blade will dig in.''
Live by it.
xox
Hannah
The day we met, we talked for hours. We got along so well. You've been a massive part of my life ever since. If I leave before ever seeing you. I want you to know that you'll always have my heart. There's no one else in this world that could live up to you. Your my best friend. And you'll always be my Best friend. I don't care how far away you are. When we talk its like we share the same room. I wish it were that simple.
I just want you to know that ill always love you. And one day your life will be bliss. I promise Hannah. I'll make it happen. Fuck the problems, and live in our own world. We make it what we want, and that's what I love.
Well, I best head off to sleep. I will always need you in my life Hannah. I know I say this a fuck load but it will never be enough, I love you.
''My surface is so tough, I don't think the blade will dig in.''
Live by it.
xox
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Back In The X days
This always brightens my day. No matter what. it just reminds me of the positive times.
I remember just how it used to be when the nights were fucking ours and the sunrise made me feel so sick things were much simpler and those summers last too long but that feeling was as depressing as the day my eyes met yours. We always talk about getting caught up in the moment getting wrapped up in situations saying words we can never take back. A four letter word, the most beautiful of things but the one I used on you is the one I wish I truly could mean. I never said a thing I only half meant I dropped hints at being the worst man for the job. I've smashed clocks, broken mirrors, the man in the reflection, the one I truly hate the most. I want my life back! Days spent...Months spent...Years spent... Saying...If I had a time machine..HELL YEAH!
I remember just how it used to be when the nights were fucking ours and the sunrise made me feel so sick things were much simpler and those summers last too long but that feeling was as depressing as the day my eyes met yours. We always talk about getting caught up in the moment getting wrapped up in situations saying words we can never take back. A four letter word, the most beautiful of things but the one I used on you is the one I wish I truly could mean. I never said a thing I only half meant I dropped hints at being the worst man for the job. I've smashed clocks, broken mirrors, the man in the reflection, the one I truly hate the most. I want my life back! Days spent...Months spent...Years spent... Saying...If I had a time machine..HELL YEAH!
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Comin' Home
Well, its been a while since I've been writing on this. I've never actually thanked my parents for the life they gave me. so i guess this is to them.
I've never been rich and I've never been poor, which I guess made me appreciate everything more. For i've had a chance in a way to decide, to mix with people from all different situations in life. I saw the pros and cons and then rose beyond, all the negatives of each side the way I speak might be, a blatant display of the way I was raised, but shit, im proud of that and seeing as how im at this point. I wasn't raised up being refused, my parents made a choice and gave me freedom to chose, my own way, in a way knowing mistakes that might come and I think because of that I've learned to make the right ones too, now my youth in all truth was a hard time, knowing theres a place where you fit in that you cant find, half the time my mind felt so confident. I couldn't understand why half the time I felt the opposite. I just wanted to be somewhere in between in my head, but instead I got the courage up to dream, because my parents had awareness and they taught me that your own belief is essential to reach your potential, in fact to think of all the love you've given me and me rarely telling you how much it really means. Now mum I gotta take a bit of time. cos I wanna say this right but I still gotta make it rhyme. You're way above any label I could give, so ill just say it how it is. From the very first moment I was born its like I've had a mum that was devoted to me more than herself, and not just that phase when you're young, im talkin from that age all the way to 21 I've been spoilt, and as hopeless as it is. I didnt really notice as a kid, but now im grown and I know every sacrifice you made, so our home was our own little paradise to stay and later on working 60 hour weeks and still coming home to cook so you could sit us down to eat, and through it all you never asked for any help, as if in some way you just expect it from yourself, so I just want you to know that im greatful for everything you've done and for everything to come, you spent your life trying to illuminate my gloom, now i'll spend the rest of mine trying to do the same for you. You supported me in everything. I know that I can come and talk to you for anything and you'll understandand man you gotta know that the man that i've become is pretty simply cos I got to have you as my mum. And dad, without you I woulda never made it through, cos i've emulated you since the tender age of 2, or maybe before, but basically all im trying to say is that it made me who I am today. Its you who taught me how to have pride back when I was young so now im proud to have a dad like that. You stand up for what you think thats why I do the same now i've found a voice to try to make it change. You saw through all the bullshit, i've had my eyes open ever since. I dont believe it just because they call it evidence, I've seen the benefit, of having a dad who's not afraid to be affectionate, through all the years that you've worked just to provide for us and with every single dollar made you didnt get that holiday til this year, shit its easy to tell the type of dad you've been cos that speaks for itself. Growing up you'd always come to my sport and show your love and support so just one thing before I finish. I just want you to know that meant a lot. My childhood had everything that I could ever want. You gave me strength to be what I wanna be and see my life and what I wanted to achieve, so from here on out, whatever happens over time in my life, you got a son that knows he can always come back home and feel better.
x
I've never been rich and I've never been poor, which I guess made me appreciate everything more. For i've had a chance in a way to decide, to mix with people from all different situations in life. I saw the pros and cons and then rose beyond, all the negatives of each side the way I speak might be, a blatant display of the way I was raised, but shit, im proud of that and seeing as how im at this point. I wasn't raised up being refused, my parents made a choice and gave me freedom to chose, my own way, in a way knowing mistakes that might come and I think because of that I've learned to make the right ones too, now my youth in all truth was a hard time, knowing theres a place where you fit in that you cant find, half the time my mind felt so confident. I couldn't understand why half the time I felt the opposite. I just wanted to be somewhere in between in my head, but instead I got the courage up to dream, because my parents had awareness and they taught me that your own belief is essential to reach your potential, in fact to think of all the love you've given me and me rarely telling you how much it really means. Now mum I gotta take a bit of time. cos I wanna say this right but I still gotta make it rhyme. You're way above any label I could give, so ill just say it how it is. From the very first moment I was born its like I've had a mum that was devoted to me more than herself, and not just that phase when you're young, im talkin from that age all the way to 21 I've been spoilt, and as hopeless as it is. I didnt really notice as a kid, but now im grown and I know every sacrifice you made, so our home was our own little paradise to stay and later on working 60 hour weeks and still coming home to cook so you could sit us down to eat, and through it all you never asked for any help, as if in some way you just expect it from yourself, so I just want you to know that im greatful for everything you've done and for everything to come, you spent your life trying to illuminate my gloom, now i'll spend the rest of mine trying to do the same for you. You supported me in everything. I know that I can come and talk to you for anything and you'll understandand man you gotta know that the man that i've become is pretty simply cos I got to have you as my mum. And dad, without you I woulda never made it through, cos i've emulated you since the tender age of 2, or maybe before, but basically all im trying to say is that it made me who I am today. Its you who taught me how to have pride back when I was young so now im proud to have a dad like that. You stand up for what you think thats why I do the same now i've found a voice to try to make it change. You saw through all the bullshit, i've had my eyes open ever since. I dont believe it just because they call it evidence, I've seen the benefit, of having a dad who's not afraid to be affectionate, through all the years that you've worked just to provide for us and with every single dollar made you didnt get that holiday til this year, shit its easy to tell the type of dad you've been cos that speaks for itself. Growing up you'd always come to my sport and show your love and support so just one thing before I finish. I just want you to know that meant a lot. My childhood had everything that I could ever want. You gave me strength to be what I wanna be and see my life and what I wanted to achieve, so from here on out, whatever happens over time in my life, you got a son that knows he can always come back home and feel better.
x
Monday, July 13, 2009
Hello, I'm In Delaware.
My career will consist of the one thing I desire most in my life. My passion of art and music is all that I care about now. I don't care about anything else even remotely compared to these topics. If I could reach my own expectations I'll most likely be happy. Tattooing is a big part of my life and I want it to stay a big part. Even though I've made a few permanent regrets to my body such as the holes in my ears and the tattoo on my skin. I'm determined to fix myself and be happy with the choices ill make.
My home will only be my sanctuary. The place where I go to think, sleep and eat. I will never isolate myself from the world. I will never become the stereotypical homeowner.
My car will be powered with my mind. I refuse to drive to a location daily. Trains and buses release the same, even more green house gases in the air than cars. I will only drive if i have no other choice.
My relationships will be forgotten. I'll be my own person. The only person I will rely on is my closest friends to build my spirit.
I love my friends and that's all I need right now. I don't need the pressure of another relationship. My most recent tore me from my own body as i was constantly in the dumps.
My life in general will be depressing and lonely. Nothing will change compared to the days I'm living now. No sleep and no happiness is my future. Cold and alone.
My home will only be my sanctuary. The place where I go to think, sleep and eat. I will never isolate myself from the world. I will never become the stereotypical homeowner.
My car will be powered with my mind. I refuse to drive to a location daily. Trains and buses release the same, even more green house gases in the air than cars. I will only drive if i have no other choice.
My relationships will be forgotten. I'll be my own person. The only person I will rely on is my closest friends to build my spirit.
I love my friends and that's all I need right now. I don't need the pressure of another relationship. My most recent tore me from my own body as i was constantly in the dumps.
My life in general will be depressing and lonely. Nothing will change compared to the days I'm living now. No sleep and no happiness is my future. Cold and alone.
Friday, June 19, 2009
We make our lives
This story will be dedicated to my mother and father.
No matter what happens to me in life. I can always rely on you to be there by my side.
A mother passing by her son's bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was adressed to 'Mum.'
With the worst premonition she opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter.
Dear Mum:
It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing to you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you.
I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice.
But i knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion... Mum she's pregnant.
Stacy said that we will be very happy.
She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.
Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone. we'll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstacy.
In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for Aids so Stacy can get better. She deserves it.
Don't worry Mum. I'm 15 and i know how to take care of myself.
Someday I'm sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grand children.
Love, Your Son Mitchell
PS. Mum, none of the above is true. I'm over at Ashley's house.
I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than a report card that's in my center desk drawer.
I love you.
No matter what happens to me in life. I can always rely on you to be there by my side.
A mother passing by her son's bedroom was astonished to see that his bed was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope, propped up prominently on the pillow that was adressed to 'Mum.'
With the worst premonition she opened the envelope with trembling hands and read the letter.
Dear Mum:
It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing to you. I had to elope with my new girlfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad and you.
I have been finding real passion with Stacy and she is so nice.
But i knew you would not approve of her because of all her piercings, tattoos, tight motorcycle clothes and the fact that she is much older than I am. But it's not only the passion... Mum she's pregnant.
Stacy said that we will be very happy.
She owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of firewood for the whole winter. We share a dream of having many more children.
Stacy has opened my eyes to the fact that marijuana doesn't really hurt anyone. we'll be growing it for ourselves and trading it with the other people that live nearby for cocaine and ecstacy.
In the meantime we will pray that science will find a cure for Aids so Stacy can get better. She deserves it.
Don't worry Mum. I'm 15 and i know how to take care of myself.
Someday I'm sure that we will be back to visit so that you can get to know your grand children.
Love, Your Son Mitchell
PS. Mum, none of the above is true. I'm over at Ashley's house.
I just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than a report card that's in my center desk drawer.
I love you.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Aunt Kaye
Lunchtime, The most inspirational woman I could ever meet and love, past away.
Don't comfort me, dont give me the usual 'Oh im so sorry to hear' you have no idea what its like unless youve lost someone as close as her, try loosing your best friend and mother on the same day. then try being told that day with a simple dull phone call. If youve ever been in my position, im amazed you could survive it. im struggling. if you read this, dont talk to me about it. please
Don't comfort me, dont give me the usual 'Oh im so sorry to hear' you have no idea what its like unless youve lost someone as close as her, try loosing your best friend and mother on the same day. then try being told that day with a simple dull phone call. If youve ever been in my position, im amazed you could survive it. im struggling. if you read this, dont talk to me about it. please
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