Comin' Home

Well, its been a while since I've been writing on this. I've never actually thanked my parents for the life they gave me. so i guess this is to them.

I've never been rich and I've never been poor, which I guess made me appreciate everything more. For i've had a chance in a way to decide, to mix with people from all different situations in life. I saw the pros and cons and then rose beyond, all the negatives of each side the way I speak might be, a blatant display of the way I was raised, but shit, im proud of that and seeing as how im at this point. I wasn't raised up being refused, my parents made a choice and gave me freedom to chose, my own way, in a way knowing mistakes that might come and I think because of that I've learned to make the right ones too, now my youth in all truth was a hard time, knowing theres a place where you fit in that you cant find, half the time my mind felt so confident. I couldn't understand why half the time I felt the opposite. I just wanted to be somewhere in between in my head, but instead I got the courage up to dream, because my parents had awareness and they taught me that your own belief is essential to reach your potential, in fact to think of all the love you've given me and me rarely telling you how much it really means. Now mum I gotta take a bit of time. cos I wanna say this right but I still gotta make it rhyme. You're way above any label I could give, so ill just say it how it is. From the very first moment I was born its like I've had a mum that was devoted to me more than herself, and not just that phase when you're young, im talkin from that age all the way to 21 I've been spoilt, and as hopeless as it is. I didnt really notice as a kid, but now im grown and I know every sacrifice you made, so our home was our own little paradise to stay and later on working 60 hour weeks and still coming home to cook so you could sit us down to eat, and through it all you never asked for any help, as if in some way you just expect it from yourself, so I just want you to know that im greatful for everything you've done and for everything to come, you spent your life trying to illuminate my gloom, now i'll spend the rest of mine trying to do the same for you. You supported me in everything. I know that I can come and talk to you for anything and you'll understandand man you gotta know that the man that i've become is pretty simply cos I got to have you as my mum. And dad, without you I woulda never made it through, cos i've emulated you since the tender age of 2, or maybe before, but basically all im trying to say is that it made me who I am today. Its you who taught me how to have pride back when I was young so now im proud to have a dad like that. You stand up for what you think thats why I do the same now i've found a voice to try to make it change. You saw through all the bullshit, i've had my eyes open ever since. I dont believe it just because they call it evidence, I've seen the benefit, of having a dad who's not afraid to be affectionate, through all the years that you've worked just to provide for us and with every single dollar made you didnt get that holiday til this year, shit its easy to tell the type of dad you've been cos that speaks for itself. Growing up you'd always come to my sport and show your love and support so just one thing before I finish. I just want you to know that meant a lot. My childhood had everything that I could ever want. You gave me strength to be what I wanna be and see my life and what I wanted to achieve, so from here on out, whatever happens over time in my life, you got a son that knows he can always come back home and feel better.


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